If Only

If only it hadn’t rained.
If only my hair were curly.
If only I weren't fat, old, afraid.
If only I had been given what I deserved.
If only.

If only Man were Good.
If only we all had Enough.
If only we did not covet, kill and rape.
If only I were Loved.
If only.

If only my pain would end.
If only God would descend from Heaven.
If only my child had not died.
If only I had what I Needed.
If only.

If only I could have really seen you
That day through the noise of ifs onlys.
If only I had dared to jump.
If only I had loved.
If only.

If only I had lived
Rather than wondered how Life
Could have been different.
If only I had opened my Heart.
If only.

If only on that day
I had chosen You
Rather than what should have been
I would have been a Man.